I do not like waking up at 5:30 in the morning with the Fear sitting square on my back with long spiny fingers gripping the back of my head while it whispers shit in my ear. I do not like that, I do not like that at all. I do not like feeling as though I'm not supposed to change my mind ever, about anything, and certainly can't ever change it back. I don't like it when the Fear is crushing my lungs and forces me out of bed an hour early, which is somehow worse than when I can't bear to get up. I do not like feeling guilty regardless of what my decision is, I don't like feeling as though I've screwed myself over. I do not like to be awake this early and thinking about this.
Comments (3)
Mmmmm brain chemistry....
Posted by jeremy | May 9, 2007 11:08 PM
Posted on May 9, 2007 23:08
Goddamn fear. It's just pissy today cuz it realized its social life reached a zenith in high school. Pay no heed!
Posted by joy | May 10, 2007 6:43 AM
Posted on May 10, 2007 06:43
I agree, the zenith was in high school, but it still rears its ugly head from time to time.
Posted by Clifford's Mojo | May 12, 2007 3:50 PM
Posted on May 12, 2007 15:50