Today I woke up at eight-twenty. It will be a busy day. Right after I finish this hair-raisingly strong coffee, I will don my nitrile-gum, acid and oil resistant boots. To, you know protect me from the rain. And yes, I’ve been monumentally depressed. Yes, I can’t remember being this depressed in a while. Yes, I feel restless, angry, confused, displaced, song-weeping, and everything I eat has been making me feel like the most worthless scumbag lately. Yes, I am trying to cope. Yes, I am sorry. For not being myself, even though I don‘t know what that is anymore and it sickens me to admit to and write about anything so emotional. I am sorry. Directly or indirectly, to whomever. I have a deep, terrible need for something and I’m running around for miles and miles inside myself trying to find out what the fuck that is. WHAT THE FUCK IS IT?? WHAT DO I WANT? WHAT DOES SHE WANT?? WHAT DO I FUCKING WANT?? I will be wearing a green turtleneck, thick weave.
Posted by caroline at October 31, 2005 9:42 AMSometimes turtlenecks make me feel that way too!
Posted by: Lana at October 31, 2005 3:36 PMhi.
who are you then?
Posted by: caroline at October 31, 2005 4:00 PMsorry...I am the person who your friend wrote about and I asked for my article to be removed from the web. Once I read your stuff I thought you seemed so interesting. Maybe I shouldn't have commented as I don't know you...I know you were writting about somethng seriuos...sorry...I will mind my own business.. But you are very creative and you put so much energy into your writting...I couldn't stop reading it.
oh, I wasn't upset over your commenting, just immensely curious as to how you found me--since I had no idea who you were.
thanks for letting me know!
I like new people.
:)
I am totally commenting/checking my blog for comments in between packing/folding my clothes/trying things on. and that is my life. oh ho.