In the meantime, I didn’t really say anything, but sort of being taken over, or overtaken--- how are those two divided? & wishing to god I had enough money to buy film for my camera as well as toiletries. Once in awhile . . . . actually, . . .except for when I bought that Dutch_____---today.
Like when you’re dancing to really bad house music with a girl named m_____ a couple of nights before, or she happens to be there very much like you happen to be there & instead of dancing you just want to grab her & hug her for a very long time but can’t really, because she doesn’t know that you know what happened. So you keep dancing, and don’t really say anything to anybody. Kind of like today. But less heavy. Because today, you weren’t drinking something called a cape cod and all the while having no idea what it was. Since there was so much cranberry, & so little____ of anything to discern.
I don’t know. If I could just get a scrap of evidence that straight men aren’t total useless assholes---- because what the universe has been playing out before me lately has been just incredible. I mean, I’m finding it difficult to unfold my bed.
Posted by caroline at February 8, 2005 12:40 AMNah, it's not straight men. It's just a few isolated bastards.
Posted by: ben at February 8, 2005 11:29 AMI disbelieve you, Benny boy. I think it's majority assholes, with a few isolated good ones here and there...
Have faith, Caroline. After all, you still have your health.
"you still have your health"??
oh, man. That's like what you say to really far-gone depressed/done people! Well, yes: sure do . .or so I think . . .I mean, clearly not mental, but we weren't getting to specific . .
!!
xx'
Posted by: caroline at February 8, 2005 8:27 PMwell then, ben, i guess i must be in a field of abject isolation.
Posted by: caroline at February 8, 2005 8:28 PM