I have nothing else to do right now so I figured I would post a blog entry. I went swimming with Jonas this afternoon and had a good time despite the fact that my heart was pounding through my chest and that I could only swim for about 15 minutues. Holy shit though, swimming is such a great work out.
I feel like such a loser. I used to swim every day for 2 hours on the swim team. Well, today I could only swim for 15 minutes! Goodness. I need to get back to that point.
I just thought of something to do.
Bye.
Just got back from seeing The Passion of Christ. I would call it profound. The way in which it took the Gospel and made it a visual. It was very graphic, though I believe that was one of the points that is was attempting and did make.
I know that since I have been going to church all my life and my dad is my pastor I know more then "the typical person" about the Christian faith. However, reality hit me while I was walking home from the movie. There was this couple walking behind me who just came out of the movie as well and they were talking about it. The women said that she "didn't know that was how it ended. I mean I knew he died but I didn't know he came back to life." That blew me away! I mean I assumed that even if you were not Christian you knew the basic things, especially like the entire concept of Christianity---that Jesus died for our sins and then rose again from the tomb.
Hearing that women say that put me back in check. I guess it was dumb to assume something like that. I mean I don't know that much about other religions so why would someone know that Jesus died and then came back to life?
Oh well. I'm out.
I have seen some amazing movies lately. I make it a point to see all the films that are up for an Oscar.
These are the people I think should win the hot little gold man.
Best Actor: Ben Kingsley for House of Sand and Fog (Close second Sean Penn for Mystic River).
Best Actress:* Samantha Morton for In America (I have yet to see all performances. So far, Samantha Morton has my vote).
Best Supporting Actor: Djimon Hounson for In America
Best Supporting Actress: ANYONE BUT RENEE ZELLWEGER
Best Director: Lost In Translation
Best Picture: Lost In Translation
Of course I may be basis considering I'm not a huge fan of Lord of the Rings which will probably win some of the big awards. But as for now, these are my choices. I'm going to see Whale Rider tomorrow and am going to see 21 Grams along with Monster before Sunday night.
Lord of the Rings has a good chance of winning. Not that I am totally opposed to the idea. I mean it's a cool idea and has been done well. But if we compare it to a movie like Lost In Translation or even Mystic River we find that it provokes a type of thought that we don't see often. New camera angels, different ways of provoking thought in the viewer. It leaves the person watching it wonder, and I like that.
Go see IN AMERICA! Amazing Flim. I would also recommened House of Sand and Fog just for Ben Kingsley! Stunning performance by that man. Just absolutely amazing. Wow.
Here I am.
Reading break was a week of sleep, drinking, laughing, and confusion.
I'm still in the slow process of communicating with Ryerson and getting letters of recommendation along with preparing my audition monologues. If I get accepted I will have to make a trip out to Toronto and audition. This is what the audition process will be like.
Applicants must prepare a personal presentation in which they will DO a whole play of their choice in three minutes or less. This is not to be lecture based on the story of the play. Applicants are expected to DO the whole play. Please do not ask for further clarification. Applicants are meant to interpret the meaning of "DO." Applicants may choose from any play from any time period, any language and any genre (including musicals).
Applicants are also required to prepare a classical and a contemporary monologue (maximum length two minutes), as they will be asked to present one of them. The audition will be performed in front of other applicants and a panel of judges.
Applicants will be required to submit a 400-word statement explaining why they wish to be a performing artist (be prepared to discuss), a current resume with an 8x10-inch photograph, and letters of recommendation.
I think I can handle that.
I have been cat sitting for the past 5 days. AH! I'm not sure if I like cats anymore.
I bought Mambo Italiano today. Love it!
I'm going to work on memorizing.
Much love.
Sent.
My application to Ryerson is sent.
Holy Shit.
What the hell am I doing? I cannot explain it. I cannot verbalize why I want to look into other places. It's a feeling I have. Call it intuition. I know its something that I cannot let pass without me doing anything about it. Whatever happens with this, I don't know. Though I feel like it's something I have to do.
FFFFFUUUUCCCCKKKKK!
I found out what my AE bill was last month. EEK!
I simply don't want to talk about.
So, it's reading break. Yup.
Speaking of spending less money, I bought two DVDs last night. Moonstruck and Igby Down Goes . Very good.
I watched Lost In Translation last night too! So good.
I don't know what to do about my date I had on Friday. He has emailed and called me since then. I mean he is a nice guy, but I don't want a realtionship with him. Should I see him again in hopes to have a friendship? Or do I tell him that I'm not intrested in him?
I went to the gym this morning with Ashley. I feel good now. I might go again tonight. Probably not. Wishful thinking maybe.
My sister called me from New York today.
"Hi Bud," she said.
"Hey Courtney! How are you?" I asked.
"Good. I have to tell you something."
"You got into Princeton?!" I guessed.
"Well, I don't know yet about that," she said.
"Hum...well, you got engaged?" I said excitingly.
"I'm about to plan a wedding!"
AHHHHH! I screamed! My sister is getting married!!! How exciting! I'm so happy for her! Aaron, her boyfriend, went to visit her in New York for a long weekend and proposed to her last night! It was the cutest way of proposing! They finished dinner and he had a simple red bag. He handed it to her and she began to open it. Well, it was filled with a ton of Valentine cards (the kind you give out in grade 1 and 2...Winnie the Pooh, Blues Clues etc...) well, she came upon a a plain white envelope. She opened it and Aaron had wrote on one of the Valentines, "Will you." Though at the bottom of the envelope was one of the conversation hearts candies with the words, "Marry me."
AH! Tear!
Then at the very bottom of the bag was a tiny blue and white box! Ah! The ring is from Tiffany's!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
How fun! Yay! There is going to be a wedding! :)
1:36am the day following Valentines.
Just got back from the bar. I didn't drink my worries away though. Maybe I should have...?
A lot of things are on my mind.
Time for a bath.
I have a date on Friday.
A what?
A date.
Oh a date!
Yeah. So, I have come to the reality that I can no longer feel sorry for myself about not having a boyfriend. Why? Because I was doing nothing about it. So, I have a date.
A What?
A date.
Oh a date.
I have such unreasonable expectations in how I want to meet someone. That is why I think I have been not dating because of my stupid ideal way of wanting to meet someone.
How did I meet this boy? Well, I haven't yet. No, it's not someone from online. There is this girl in drama who I have talked with from time to time and she mentioned last term to me that her good friend is gay. She said she would hook us up, but you know how that goes. Well, last week we were talking again and she mentioned Brian again and that we should get together. I said okay and I gave her my number to give to him. Today she gave me his email address. I emailed him and he emailed back. We are meeting on Friday. I'm not expecting much out of this really. I have just came to the conclusion that I need to start dating more and take more riskes within the area of dating. AH!
On another note, my parents left yesterday. I absolutely loved having them here and they loved being here. They loved meeting everyone and could not say enough about it. I just loved it! :) My mom called me last night saying they made it home safely...of course she was calling from bed with a wine glass in hand...not really but it makes the story more exciting. :)
I need to work more on school shit now. I have a play to read but I don't think I'm going to read it. I just don't want to. I have to choose a monologue for acting class. I'm thinking of choosing one from Eugene O'Neill play Long Day's Jounrey Into Night. Such an amazing script. I don't know. I gotta think. I'm off to take a bath. Night!
My parents are here!
It has been so fun to have them around. They got in last night and of course we went right to dinner. Since both of them has been up since 4am Denver time they were tired. We came back home and they needed to sleep. So, this allowed me to go over to my friends house from drama who was having a get together. My dad drove me there, though on the way we got lost since we got off the bus route... haha... it was fun. It was also strange. It was like I was back in middle school when I was not old enough to drive and my dad was taking me to a friends party! It was a flash back. I got out of the car and was like "thanks daddy, love you." It was just wired.
Woke up this morning and did some shopping and ate lunch... now we are just chilling...actually they are taking a rest again... haha... parents. don't ya love them! :)
Anyways, I'm loving it!
Today, we had a guest speaker today in our 105 lecture. She was interesting to listen to while she was sharing her experience of working in the "theater world" for more than ten years. Listening to her made me ponder again if I'm in the right place. Like I have said before, I feel I could be receiving a better drama education elsewhere. What makes me want to stay are the friends I have made and the idea of having to start over again. I would be leaving a lot behind...
But it was something about listening to her speak. Like it gave me a rush of passion about theater and the possibilities that are out there. A part of me just absolutely cannot let what I felt today go to the waste side. Beleive me that a part of me does. I would be scared to move. However, I'm finding myself constantly acknowledging that I cannot push what I feel aside. I have always tried to listend to my intuition and heart. I feel I would be cheating myself if I didn't at least try and give this a go. So, I have filled out the first part of the OUAC application that is required for all Ontario universities. Breathe Brandon.
Let's imagine that I were to go to Ryerson. Well, I would find myself in Toronto, a city in which has more to offer than Victoria and Vancouver combined! More opportunities in theater not only in the working sense but seeing and experiencing more radical types of theater that you're unable to find on the West Coast. It would also offer more of a historical sense of the theater world.
It's much longer then Victoria...colder then Vicotira...and it would be missing my friends I have in Victoria. This is where I am caught.
Breathe Brandon.
Lord---be with me.
I'm angry.
I must like a fool.
With all due respect, this whole thing was supposed to be about me and what I needed to say. Though now it makes me seem flaky, which in return makes me angry because I'm the one looking foolish. I'm not going to have that.
Fuck!
Whatever. I'm going to say what I need to say to some people. I'm going to ask that he makes clear that the confusion was their fault. They did not contact me whatsoever to inform me about anything. So, how was I supposed to know? Well duh, I couldn’t know if no one phones me!
Makes me pissed!
My mommy and daddy will be here in three days!
I could not drag myself out of bed this morning. I managed to finally stumble out of bed after an hour of pressing snooze. I don't remember my shower this morning. Though I manage to remember the man who had bad BO on the bus this morning. Wonderful.
This morning in my acting class we had to sit through people "rasing the dead." This is an activity where we had to choose someone who has died and research them. With the information that we had gathered, we write a monologue and present it. For the most part I enjoy seeing what my class mates have done...however, this morning it was painful. Only because I was fighting to keep my eyes open.
Oh my goodness! On the bus after class I had the craziest bus driver. He missed people's stops and he was slamming on the brake every stop...I mean slamming! To the point where I fell into the women who was standing behind me because I lost my grip and balance. It was crazy! Though I still thanked the fool.
I'm finding myself still in pain after going to the gym two days ago! Ah! I cannot let this stop me. I'm going to swim some laps in an hour.
This is the month! I'm on a diet!
I'm going to do it!
Watch me!
I have joined the YMCA. This means I'm going to get into super shape! Since this is February 1, I'm going on a diet. I joined yesterday with Anna and her boyfriend Heath. Heath was trainning a few backs in the states for tennis. So, he knows all the correct ways of lighting weights and such. He was helping me yesterday and it was like I had a personal trainer. It was fun. Well, I don't know about fun. But it will be nice to be in better shape. Also, the fact that I joined with friends is even better. They will force me to go and it will just be grand.
Last night I went five-pin bowling. It was my first time ever and the first two attempts I got a strike! I was happy, though Heath was not so thrilled...haha. It was all fun and games. But Anna won both games!
Today is Micahel's birthday!