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This is my first birthday card:

They Named Him: Shane Lucas (David Lee)
Birthdate: Feb. 1st 1976
Time: 12:29 AM
Hair: light brown, like silk, with a cow lick
Weight: 6lbs, 7ozs
Length: 51cm
coloring: fair
discharge weight: 6lbs 15ozs
birthsign: aguarias [sic]
fostor parents: Diana & Grant
gostor siblings: Michele, Gillian, and Elliot

Shane is a very contented infant. He was allergic to milk so swiftly I changed him over to soyalac. His is thriving nicely and he has skin (believe it or not) like a BABY! His hair is really so specialy silkie.[sic]

[in different handwriting]
dark blond & nice looking
he has a real cowlick in his head of hair

In ten minutes I'm going to begin my 30th year. Its a rather strange though, twenty nine years ago right now, I was a wee little thing inside some random seven-teen year-olds womb. I wonder if I'll ever actually meet her. The records say she was a single mother (duh! she was 17!) still in highschool. She had a real talent for mathematics and music, who had an "accident" with an eighteen year-old mill worker. OOPS!

I found the birthday card while I was cleaning out some of my fathers crap this summer. I've known I was adoped as long as I can remember, but I never saw any of that memorabilia. My mother (crazy as she is) claims to have shown it to me, but I remember a time when she absolutely refused to even entertain the notion of a time before they carried me off the airplane.

The desire and search for inner peace are paradoxical. One cannot achieve enlightenment whilst searching, and desire clouds any view of higher existence.

Hmm... who would have thought I'd wax philosophical today?

We being three did see by the sea
a thumb surrounded in a plum eating gum
and said, being played like a frayed pea,
Orange?

There is value in the search for enlightenment, but one cannot expect to find it while seeking it. Searching for enlightenment is caused by a desire, and desire clouds our views.

Sounds froofy. I want an enlightening donut.

Bismarck Tribune Online - Bismarck, ND

Grr... stupid Flash ad. Its a noisy ad too. I want to read the article and listen to music, but the stupid car noises won't let me.

I hate advertising.

And really, isn't it about VD? Going to the store soon to pick up some stuff for SURPRISE that I'm working on. I was inspired last night. Divine Intervention gave me the bestest idea for SURPRISE ever.

So I'm going to the store.

WPVI.com: If It Ain't Broke....

"Loonatics" starring Buzz Bunny and friends will be set in the year 2772 and, according to Warner Brothers, the characters will display the same wit and humor as the classics.

And "Buzz Bunny" will have "laser eyes" to back up his martial arts expertise. Daffy Duck gets built-in sonar. They plan to make him "fresh, cool, and hip."

Maybe they should call him Buzzword Bunny. He could spew marketroid-speak, and everyone could be 14% more hip!

Pooh's Heffalump Movie - The Filthy Critic

This time, forget the foul language; I just want to put a song into the heart of the youngsters.

If you have a toddler or an I-Can-Read-All-By-Myself early-grader in the house, sit them in front of the monitor for a special treat.

Kids, Pooh's Heffalump Movie is good in the same way as seeing your parents screwing if your parents are hot-looking and you're not easily creeped out by that sort of thing.

I've been reading Filthy's movie reviews for a long time. I even remember that confusing summer when he was dead, but came back to life like Buffy did every season and you wonder if they're ever going to be able to break out of that formula, and then realize that you've had the DVD player on repeat while writing a very long (run-on long, in fact) sentence after reading something crazy.

Thanks Mr. Filthy.

Oh, and I think I just got promoted. More on that later. Read his review, and get your priorities right. Don't pester me for news in my life, that's not what this blog is about. It should be about all that, but it just doesn't work out that way.

I've sunshine in my bedroom. Summer is on the way.

I've been wanting to start a photoblog for a long time now, but there's two problems. I always forget to take pictures, and there just isn't good free software to run a photoblog.

my favourite from today

Writing the photoblog software would be easy, but time consuming. I'm unhappy with blogging software in general, so creating something new would be satisfying.

simply simple

NOTE TO SELF: spelchick

Remebering to take a photo each day wouldn't be easy. As usual, the hard part for me is actually using the software once its created. It shouldn't be too difficult to do: take the camera with me, and clicky-clicky to picture perfect happiness. But why is it so damn difficult to actually follow through?

clickable clicky

I'm tired. I'm exhausted. I'm sleeping well, but wake with tired, weary eyes.

My dreams have been remarkably symbolic and poignant, as Ben pointed out yesterday. I'm lost in a sea of people in Tokyo, trying to make a bank machine work. We're running through a maze, like mice. Alice Cooper is fixing my kitchen sink with Drain-o.

Damn, I want a good night sleep.

last nights dreams:
1. something symbolic in Colorado turning from red to blue. Was there red rocks or valleys or mountains or something?

2. interesting and creative movie plots and ideas that I want to make. How do you make a movie these days?

1. Geometry: inversion is defined for cicles. Lines and circles are mapped into lines and circles. Why use circles? It should be possible to define inversion with arbitrary conics.

2. Posets: Dilworths theorem states that, to cover a poset with chains, you need as many chains as you have elements in the largest antichain. There's another theorem that says that to cover a poset with antichains, you need as many antichains as elements in the largest chain. There's some sort of dual action going on there, something that needs to be explored.

I haven't found anything on Mathworld to suggest an answer yet. I'll keep scratching my head about them.

I slept better last night. Could it be that I didn't have a coffee yesterday? Inquiring minds want to know. I've tried drinking tea instead of coffee. It left me feeling empty and unsatisfied. Coffee is viscous and visceral; so many complex flavours. Tea is watery (like a tart!) and has too much tannin.

That was a surprisingly poorly constructed paragraph, as is this sentence.

I spent two hours in the garden today, or should I write, that area around my house that might someday be a garden. The lilac bush needed pruning in the most desperate of ways. The plum tree is doing well, and I've been thinking up a plan for what to do next. Everything that isn't a pretty plant will be covered in landscape fabric and mulch.

Who doesn't love the word mulch? Speak now, so I can mock you.

Exercise, sunshine, and accomplishment. I should go into gardening as a profession.