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What have I learned in the last year? Having just completed another trip 'round the old ball of fire of in the younder blue heavens, I think it may be time to review.

Well... Not tonight... It's late, and I must have wild, rolicking birthday sex with the sexiest man around. Just look at him sitting there on the bed, all naked and flirting at me. Yummy.

But, in the spirit of teasing and all that, I will mention that I did learn something very important tonight. I've outgrown the bar. It no longer holds my interest. All it can offer me is alcohol and an endless string of mindless, cracker jack, cookie cutter fags. I love to see my friends and I love to see my friends, but beyond the people who are already meaningful in my life, there is noone at the bar for me to talk to.

And now for the birthday romp.

Ssshhhhh.....

Not so loud.

Even the sound of the typing is making it worse.

That's better.

Day one of my 28th year was yesterday.

Had a blast. Started off at the chocolate festival. How can you go wrong with a chocolate festival for breakfast? I don't think you can. Had some fantastic goodies and treats. Then to the spa for a facial and a massage. I haven't been that relaxed in a very long time.

It was the first time people had thrown me a party. Usually, it's the other way around, or I just attend parties put on by other people. It made me feel special and loved, and reminded me just how important and caring my friends are.

Most Surreal Moment: Introducing "Shots", "Gusto" and "Pennies" to a faithful (and astoundingly beautiful) reader.

I didn't get many gifts, which actually made me very happy; A sonnet from benny, and a copy of Batman. Brandon gave me a copy of Dead Poets Society. Everyone brought wonderful dishes to share. Lots of conversation and drink, probably more drink than should have been.

And cheese. Loads of cheese. Brie, Brie, Brie, Camambare (sp? sorry, can't be bothered to fix it), cheddar with red wine in it (sorry, can't remember the name of the red wine stuff. Jo and I laughed about it for a while), cottage cheese, cheesy jokes...

I just wanna know where my phone is.

Georgia Nicols Daily Horoscope: February 1, 2004

Aquarius (Jan. 20 - Feb. 18)

There are always two reasons for doing anything: a good reason and the real reason. You don't have to come up with any reasons today! Don't try to defend your position. Don't attack others, either. Keep a light touch. (This is a confusing day.)

If Your Birthday Is Today

Singer/celebrity Lisa Marie Presley (b.1984) shares your birthday. You're clever, mentally quick and well informed. You're also grounded in an earthy way. You want your ideas to be heard and understood by others. You become emotionally stronger as you age. You can think on your feet because you can improvise. Important cycles will finish this year to lay the groundwork for something in 2005.

I feel like I've fallen into mathematical hell.

Question 4, part Q3: There exist two points and two lines, the points not on the lines, such that the point on the two lines is on the line on the two points.

It has taken me a few hours to work out the meaning of that one sentence. I've drawn pictures, and now I've finally got it. I think. Seems easier to me that I first though. Gary sugested that we use three different cases to prove it, but I think I may have done it without them.

Or perhaps I just don't understand it at all.

Saying the theorem is quite satisfying, like articulating "macaw peach" or something lovely and wordy. Maybe it's really just a little bit of surealist/dadaist poetry.

DIEVX DV STADE 2004 [not work safe]

Thanks dan.

1. Really creamy, rich potato and leek soup. I made some today.
2. Mustard. French mustard on a baked potato, dry mustard in a stir fry.
3. Fetuccini Alfredo and a Caesar salad.
4. Or any Caesar salad really.
5. Roast Beef. Yep. I love a large piece of meet cooked slowly. Rare to medium rare. There must be some redness left in the meat, and a rich, flour gravy, onions baked around the meat and in the drippings. Yum...
6. Avocados.

To contintue the food theme...LILEKS (James) :: Gallery of Regrettable Food

A picture of coffee jello. I'm intrigued, and more than a little horrified.

Who's with me on this? We should must must have a coffee jello party. Hmm??? Don't we all need the shakes every once in a while? I say we just forgo brunch one Sunday, and eat Jello.

Coffee Jello.

I scare me sometimes.

I seem to be on a little bit of a roll tonight with the posting. Can you tell I'm procrastinating? I can.

I should really be calling the crazy dead guy's crazy (not dead) sister. I should really be doing homework and studying for the three midterms coming up. I should be looking up the proper spelling of coming up in the dictionary...

Wait, I did that. It's right. I wonder if that's where the apostrophe goes? Crap... back to the dictionary to check the spelling of apostrophe. Just like trophy, but you don't get a little goldish figurine of a little man bowling.

Text: President Bush on NBC's 'Meet the Press' (washingtonpost.com)

Choice Quote: BUSH: Well, first let me kind of step back and talk about intelligence in general, if I might.

I really hope things are going well for you. I've really been enjoying all the fun, crazy things you've been throwing at me in the week or so. Lets review real quick, eh?

1. Found out about a week or so ago that my fathers sister cleaned out his bank account three days before he died. He had $67 left, to pay for
   • the cremation, coffin, and burial
   • the $5,000 visa bill (thanks for that surprise, by the way)
   • $600 for hospice care,
   • crap disposal. Why did he have so much crap?
2. My car was hit, while parked on the street
3. I met a lovely woman who either had multiple personality disorder, or did a terrible job trying to play with my mind
4. Watched a friend of mine get so drunk he didn't know where he was
5. Random crazyness at the bar. TWO DAYS IN A ROW!
6. Worst drag show in recorded history. Drag queens shouldn't do an entire Disney Tunes medley for valentines day.
7. Discoverd my mothers neglected savings account. No wonder the government is a little ticked off.
8. Took the computer in to be repaird. AGAIN. Thanks for forcing me to use Winders again.
9. Found 600 spams in my blog. That was fun.
10. Got the 600 notification emails tellin me I had 600 spams.
11. Realized that "email me when I get a comment" isn't really a good, automatic thing.
12. Had dinner with the family, and got to listen to, "Philipinos are very clean people" and "The Chinese shouldn't be allowed to drive or own stores when Canadians need jobs". Blech! I felt so icky afterward.
13. Went hiking. It was great, but I wish the pain would stop now.
14. Almost got run over crossing the street. Something tells me that bus drivers are supposed to stop at RED lights.
15. Almost got run over a second time. Bus drivers really should stop for RED lights.
16. Found out that my first boyfriend (dumped a long time ago, really) now has a hole in his head from playing paintball without a helmet.
17. Realized that if I cut down on the drinking, my VISA bill gets cut in half. OR MORE!

Really, it's been a fun filled, exciting week. I would appreciate it though, if you wouldn't mind slowing things down just a little. I could really use a few boring days at home alone. It's not that I mind crazyness mind you, I'd just like a holiday from it.

Returning to the Windows2000 world after four months of Mac OS X is a very strange experience. I hadn't realized just how intuitive the Mac OS X really is. I quite like it.

And now, while Athena the laptop is being fixed again (AGAIN? yes.) I'm forced back into a Windows2000 PC to check email, do homework, and surf the web. Hoo boy. I don't like it. Don't like it at al.

Mostly, it's because the keyboard on this computer really sucks. The space bar is going into overdrive. Typing is nearly impossible. Just look at the space bar and you get three thousand spaces where you wanted a comma. It's also because Windows Sucks(tm).

The first thing I did was to turn off the Remote Procedure Calls (RPC) which is a system for one program to tell another program what to do. It was really designed for one computer to tell another computer what to do, but sort of evolved . It is one of the most insecure aspects of Windows. Most of the viruses and worms spread themselves by exploiting RPC flaws, because of its poor design.

Turns out that if you turn off RPC, you can't drag icons. That makes sense, except that it doesn't. WindowsUpdate stopped working too. And hotmail.com stopped working! Why the heck should hotmail require RPC? It doesn't need to run programs on my computer, all it has to do is spit out some web pages with my email. I click the link for a message, and the message shows up in a web page. So I gave up, and decided to turn RPC back on.

Oops... looks like the bit of software that turns on services (RPC isn't really a program, its more of a "service") can't open a window without RPC. The thing that turns RPC on and off requires RPC. To turn on RPC you need to turn on RPC first, which means turning on RPC before you can turn on RPC, but that can only be done if you've turned on RPC before you try to turn on RPC... ad nauseum. ad hominem. ad hoc.

How does one turn on RPC without first turning on RPC? Well... first you have to turn on RPC.

It's been a while. Quick review:

1. Three midterms this week, and homework due in every class.
2. Still waiting for the laptop to come back from being fixed. how fucking long does it take to turn the thing on, close the lid and open the lid? Longer than it takes to type the instructions.
3. Pride stuff. I'm finally getting off my ass and doing some pride stuff.
4. Estate. Still chugging along. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, except for the inveitable litagation. Whoo.
5. Classes. I'm not doing nearly as well as I'd like.
6. Depression. Still there, but getting a little better.
7. Van of death: Still dead, still smells like death.
8. Car: buring oil like a son-of-a-bitch. Gas mileage has shot down to record lows.
9. garden: did some gardening, really liked it.
10. programming: decided to rewrite the bookmarking thing into a list manager. Ooops can't make any progress on it without the laptop that I haven't had for ten days.

grr... I want a nap.

The Onion | Massachusetts Supreme Court Orders All Citizens To Gay Marry

BOSTON

List of things for me to think about in the next few days:

Why on Earth did I say such a stupid thing to such cool friend and good person? How does one relax after handing in four assignments, and writing three midterms all in one week? Gardening.

I want to do more gardening. Lots more gardening. And cooking. I want to do more cooking. The Naked Chef Takes Off lists all the basics a kitchen should have. I want those. Grocery shopping, and dealing with the crazy old women with the cheese. The CHEESE! I should grow things in the garden so I don't have to shop as much. Can you grow beef in a garden? Didn't think so. Herbs. I should grow herbs (not the funky kind, the tasty kind).

Drinks. Wine bottles don't grow on trees, but wine does. I want to make plum wine, and raspberry wine, and cherry wine, and blackberry wine. Especially the black berry wine. That's a lot of liquor.

Ahh... licker... It's (or its?) getting more difficult to walk by liquorland without going in. I need to add spell checking to the blogs. It'?s (Perl regular expression for an optional apostrophe. Shouldn't all apostrophe's be optional?) Now I'm avoiding and procrastinating.

The Elgar cello concerto is really odd. It starts with a longish cello cadenza (usually at the end) but is very lovely.

...pause to change channels...

Lists. I've got lots of lists, and lists of lists (metalists, if you will) and even a list of all the lists of lists (whoa!). Hey! There'?s that internet thingy. I could use that to manage my lists and then I could get to them from almost anywhere! I should do that.

And write a photoalbum application for the internet that stops people from stealing my photos (bitch) and putting them on their website (bitch). I could check referers, require cookies, and have some sort of copyright notice to stop people from stealing my work (bitch! Poke you in the eyeballs).

Things I want: ice cream maker, big stand up mixer, A WORKING LAPTOP (bitches! different bitches though), a place of my own, a vacation, a list of places to visit, a list of movies to watch (could be watching the DVDs I got for my birthday, but the laptop is still being fixed (bitches)).