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November 3, 2003

Geeky Stuff

I keep all the files for this website in a system called concurrent versioning system (CVS). It's a nifty way of tracking changes to files and keeping old versions around, but hidden so that they don't get in the way.

Now, I've almost found a way to have CVS update the webserver's files when I make changes to the copies on my computer. And it will happen automatically. I'm happy about that.

I've also gone and registered a domain name for my laptop, so that when I go around and use different internet accesses, I can still use the same domain name. And there's nifty software to automatically update the IP address to match the domain name. I'm happy about that.

Now I just wish I could get well again. Stupid cold/flu/crappy thingy. I don't like being sick.

November 8, 2003

I Always Wondered Where My Brain Actually Is

Some bad person (I blame you, reader!) stole one of my text books. It's been missing for a week now, and hasn't come wandering back. I am not at all happy about this.

Not in the least.

So, to be sure that I hadn't just misplaced it or just don't see it on the shelf, I cleaned. I cleaned a lot. I cleaned under the bed (very dusty), the couch (more stuff there, not as dusty) and my desk. I put everything away and made things nice and tidy. I even took all the books off my bookshelf, rearranged them and put them back. I carefully examined each cover and a few of the pages to be sure I just wasn't not seeing the book that's gone byebye.

And I didn't do the homework due Friday, because I couldn't find the damn book.

I got out of bed yesterday morning, sat at the desk to check me email, and the phone rang. Ben asked me if I had found the book.

"No, I haven't found that book." I said, looking longingly at my bookshelf. "I haven't found that book. That book right there, sitting on my bookshelf."

Stop laughing. I don't think it is at all funny.

November 9, 2003

Yet Another Reason Not to Go South

U.S. fingerprinting Canadians for visas

U.S. fingerprinting Canadians for visas
WebPosted Nov 7 2003 06:24 PM PST
VANCOUVER - The U.S. Consulate in Vancouver has begun fingerprinting Canadians who want to work or study south of the border, as part of a new U.S. security program.

I've written about the police state in America before. It disturbes me greatly. How anyone can now claim that America is the land of the free is well beyond my grasp.

CBC News - Indepth: U.S. Striking Back: The War on Terrorism Biometrics The future of security June Chua, CBC News Online | September 2001

The head of the International Air Transport Association (IATA) has called for more stringent and expanded security measures for airports and airlines, including the use of biometrics.

November 10, 2003

Sad, Sad Day for Roy

I've always loved spending money at small businesses. It makes me happy to know that I'm not helping fund some large, evil corporation take over the world or kill little babies and toss them in the baby mulching machine(tm). One of my favourite small businesses is Cup of Joe.

The regular customers have all written some epitet or another. "Eat at Joe's" is one of my favourites, for no good reason. The staff has always been friendly. There are children's paintings from a local elementary school on the walls, proudly thanking the cup for supporting the community.

And there was a menu item dedicated to Roy.


I Can't Believe It's So Cheap Breakfast - Two eggs, pan fries, toast. Dedicated to our dear, departed friend Roy. We promise never to change this price...$2.95

A few months ago, Joe sold the Cup. Things are starting to change. Breakfast takes an hour to make it's way from the kitchen. All the waitstaff are different. And not as nice. I figured it was just a change in the management, and things would work out. They always work out, right?

The new menu came out. There's no mention of Roy, no "I can't believe it's so cheap breakfast," although there is avocado and shrimp sandwiches, aioli, and a bunch of other fancy-schmancy stuff.

Just no Roy.

Now I'm sad.

Roy dissapeared a few years ago. Vanished, really. Now the last traces of him are gone too.

November 11, 2003

Hypermedia Hyperproject

We've been working, slowly, on our hypermedia project. It's going to be a colaborative/interactive fiction along the lines of a read your own adventure book. It seems interesting to me.

The most amazing thing to me, though, is just how useful it could be outside of the interactive fiction concept. Consider a tutorial. There would be an introduction page that lays out the the general concepts, then a link at the bottom to each of the concepts. Then each of the concepts pages would have a link to the next step in the tutorial, etc...

Or a medical diagnosis page. Each link decsribes one specific symptom. As you navigate through the site, you get to a more specific description of your symptoms and the possible causes.

Or, it could be an entire web-logging system all to itself, with the first pages representing a post by the web-log author, and each of the linked pages would be a bit of discussion.

Or...

Well, the list goes on. I'm excited about just how useful this project could be.

On Death and Dying

I wonder what it is like to be near the end of one's life. Some cultures believe that as a person nears death, one gains a deeper, more meaningful understanding of the universe. Tibetans see death as more of a continuation in the cycle of life. People recounting near death experiences tell tales of bright lights, lost relatives, or floating high above their own bodies.

What about a man lying in a hospital bed, delirious from medications he cannot pronounce, prescribed by a doctor he has never met, administered by a nurse who doesn't know his name? Have they stripped him of the last great experience of his
life? Would he even know?

I don't think my father would know. He has been a coward all his life. He is lying in a hospital bed right now, dying. The cancer has destroyed his bones, there is too much calcium in his blood, and his white blood cell count is uncountable. The doctors say that he will be dead by Saturday.

I (and this is all about me, never forget that) cannot tell if I care. Should I care? He's just another dying bastard lying alone in a hospital room. Maybe I just can't deal with the situation and don't want to care. If I don't care, I don't have to go visit him and say good bye. His crazy sisters seem to care. One of them (Roberta, the really crazy one) called me today to let me know. I suppose that's nice of her. Maybe she thinks I'll give a damn and go say good bye to him before he expires.

I don't think I will. I really don't care.

When I was much younger I would dream of the day he died. I used to think about how wonderful it would be for him to just dissapear and never return. When I was seventeen, he moved out. I got my wish. Ten years later, I got a call from his crazy sister. I went to see him, but I didn't care. No pity, no sorrow, no remorse for the last ten years without him.

There won't be a party when he dies. I'm not going to celebrate. I don't even care enough to do that. He is not a part of my life anymore.

So why do I feel wierd about the entire thing?

November 12, 2003

Decision Made!

I shall go visit the dying batard.

It has taken me a very long, sleepless night to make this decision. I couldn't figure out why it would be the right thing to do. There are plenty of reasons not to go:

  • I don't like him.
  • He chose to leave. Nobody forced him to go, he chose to abandon us.
  • I'd probably be going there to mock him. That just isn't ok.
  • I hate hospitals. Hell is one giant hospital with lots of pointy, sharp things and demonic nurses and evil-overlord doctors with silly facemasks and one eye bigger than the other.
  • I owe him nothing, not even a visit on his death bed.

But maybe I do. Maybe seeing him dying there, half conscious, isn't about him. Perhaps saying goodbye to him is all about me (and remember, it's all about me!) and a sense of closure...

And then the bottom line is of course, it is the right thing to do. There is probably some small emotional attachment, either good or bad, between the two of us. I don't want there to be, but I'll just have to accept it.

November 13, 2003

Stupid Fruit!

Ugh. That was a terrible banana. bananna. bannana. bannanna. How do you spell bannannia? Banania, is that a country somewhere? Is it near Dusseldorf? I like the name Dusseldorf. I think my firstborn son will be named Dusseldorf. I hope I'm spelling that correctly, changing a name on a birth certificate is difficult. I can just imagine the requisite classified ad in some local newspaper.

Be it known on this day that Duseldorf the Great and Powerful has requested his name be changed to Dusseldorf the Mighty and Magnificent. His father appologizes for the unintentionally bad spelling, and regrets his mistake. The boy blames it on a bad banana his father ate, long before he had ever been born.

That would be fun. I think I will take out an advertisement in the Martlet to that exact effect. Perhaps with that exact wording.

Wording is fun. How does one go about wording a sentence? I wonder what silly little mechanisms in a person's brain must fire, which neurons? Do different sentences trigger a different sequence of neurons and synapses to go boom?

What is the sound of one neuron clapping? I bet it goes whizz-bang-zoom-ah!

November 15, 2003

Still Not Dead.

It has been a very odd few days, to say the least.

I did go to the hospital to say good bye. He wasn't dead, but the beep-beep-beep machine kept beep-beep-beeping away. I didn't go into the room to speak to him. He was unconscious, frail and withered. Couldn't do it.

That didn't bother me, although it probablyl should have. Maybe it's just a sign that I really don't care.

Ever since, when I look at my phone all I think is, "Nope. No phone call yet, guess he isn't dead." My mind starts to wander for a moment, and then I continue with my life.

It seems strange to me. Is it? I can't tell.

November 16, 2003

What do you think of the spammer?

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This guy is a Nigerian spammer. Hope you like the picture.

November 17, 2003

memories...

For when I'm old and miserable and don't remember things:

I have only a few memories left of Grade One. My teacher's name was Mrs. Hutchinson. She retired that year. I remember her being very tall, but I was probably wasn't. I don't remember all that clearly what she looked like; glasses, wrinkles, and lots of early 1980's brown pants suits and dresses. I think I liked her, except for once. We had calendars taped to our desks, and got a prize for having them all coloured in. They were printed on yellow paper. I think I coloured one of the character's hair yellow, but Mrs. Hutchinson didn't believe me. I thought she was mean for that, but forgot the next day.

There was a girl in my class whose name I can't remember. Nobody liked her. Everyone thought she smelled. I remember there being a bad smell, but I don't think it was her. The kids never tried to make friends with her.

I didn't have any real friends that year either, but they didn't say that I smelled bad. Not to my face anyway.

We learned arithmetic from some standard childrens books. "Count the pictures of beetles on this page. Draw the numbers from one to ten on this page. Draw a line from here to there, then a longer line, then a shorter line." It was all fun stuff, if you're six.

My only really clear memory is a girl across the room from me. Her name was Cory. She was the cute blonde little girl to my Charlie Brown. Not once did I get to talk to her. I didn't understand what was going on. I kept looking over at her, and she looked at me once in a while. Missed opportunities when I was six. Way to start out in life!

November 22, 2003

Hypermedia Project

After much insistence from the other other guy in the Hypermedia Group Project, I've been looking into PHP. I don't really like PHP, because it means mixing the source code for the application and the HTML and layout and all that together in a big ball of mud. Yuck. It seems to be good for a quick and dirty application though, which is both good and bad.

Good: less time to create the project, and more time to clean and tidy and document and get a better grade. Bad: Once a portion of the code is done, it is more difficult to change and edit/update it.

And we'll be stuck with a single layout for the web pages once we get the PHP in them. That's not such a good thing, because it means that changing things will be more difficult. Perhaps if we get the design finalized, and good, then we won't be making too many changes.

Still, it seems yucky.

Quick and Dirty Backups

I salvaged a nice big hard drive from my old computer, got one of those cheapo-bleapo USB external hard drive cases, and created a backup drive for athena. Pretty easy really, just a few screws, some cables and power and blamo - instant backups.

And none too soon either; athena will be going back to the computer store to get fixed. That's right, you reading this athena? I'm going to have you fixed. The white spots on the screen are getting fixed, and you're crashing problems are getting worked out too! So there!

For those of you interested in geeky crap, here's the script I used to make backups. It uses rsync, a nifty utility to make sure that two directories are syncronized. It is even smart enough to not copy files that haven't changed.

Continue reading "Quick and Dirty Backups" »

November 25, 2003

Oh Happy Day!

I passed! I did a little better than pass!

61% on the Abstract Algebra Midterm. Time to celebrate.

ancient memories

once upon a time...

The school across from my childhood home has been painted. I remember when it was painted last time. I don't remember how old I was, except that I was too young to go to school there. I think memories of that summer are among the first that I have.

I watched as the school was sand blasted. My mother held my hand so I didn't get too close and get any on me. It was very loud. I couldn't understand why they were using water, if they were 'sand blasting' the old paint away. It was very messy. I wanted to climb on the scaffolding the painters were using, but my mother held on very tight. When the men were done sandblasting, they left fora few days. The sand was still there, but all the water they used had dried up. There was sand left in every nook and cranny, but it wasn't like beach sand, or the sand in the sand box. It felt strange when you held it, almost like it was dirty or something. They didn't clean up after themselves like they should have.

Before the strange with the watery sand came back, you could pull the shingles off the school, because they were so loose. Misty and Tiffinay and I used to try to see who could get the biggest one. They always got bigger pieces than me.

I sat at the dinner table one warm summer night with the front door open so I could watch the painters work their magic. It didn't seem to take long for the school to transform from ugly brown bare wood (with some white parts that refused to let go) into ugly pastel yellow, with bright red trim. I wish I had a picture of the school to share, so you could see just how ugly it was.

Most of the school became yellow. The kind of ugly yellow that my mother always made me wear to church, saying how lovely I looked in my best clothes. The trim around the windows was painted bright red. It wasn't as bright as a stop sign, or a fire engine, but it was bright. I think it was chosen specifically to clash with the yellow shingles. The school had two grand staircases, which were both painted in that god-awful shade of red, turning the school into a beast with bloody legs. Nobody used those entrances. It was a big school, and they only painted the half with shingles.

The other part was an addition that happened just before we moved it. They left it cinderblock grey. The new part looked just like a prison you see on television. The gymnasium didn't even have any windows in it, just four doors, which never opened. It looked like some sort of mystery building, always bigger on the inside than the outside appeared.

Painting on top of the sand might have been a good thing. It gave all the stairs and hand railings some grittiness when you walked on it. Sitting on any part of the school was painful, and if you happened to slip on the steps, you were bound to hurt yourself.

When I started grade one, there was a bit of a playground on one side of the school. There wasn't anything to do on the other side. It was just a big open field. The playground had a slide, and three "things" to climb on. There was also a merry-go-round, but it was cemented into the ground. They should have called it a merry-go-motionless. I never got to ride on the merry-go-nowhere, some kid fell off and hurt herself before I was old enough to hurt myself. I wonder if I should thank that kid.

The school was two or three floors tall, depending on which part you were in. The old part was very tall. The ground floor was where the bathrooms, furnace room, and a storage room were kept. Above that were the older kids classes, and the principals office, and the library. There was a teachers room, but I didn't go near it. It smelled funny. The library was very high off the ground, and the stairs to get into it from outside the school were very tall. We used to play in and under the wood frame stairs on one side of the school, and bounce a ball off the concrete stairs on the other side.

November 29, 2003

It's All Good, Now.

She's alive. Athena, the supercomputer-laptop, is back. And running.

I was without her for a week. It sucked. I missed her. I missed email, and stupid websites and news for nerds.

I promise to never feed you bad ram ever again girl.

And how, you may ask, do i know she works? Well... simple. I've got two big software compiles going right now, iTunes, X windows, a big ol' download, and four large file copies. Two of the copies are back and forth to a USB drive.

Oh, and I made coffee this morning.

November 30, 2003

swearing

It isn't that I have anything against swearing, I'm just surprised by how much swearing I've heard on TV recently. For the most part, I've always considered TV censors to be quite prudish and even childish at times. Tonight, I saw a movie that had the beautiful phrase, "Fuck you, you fuckshit."

I think that is meant to be something like "dipshit" but I don't know. I've never heard someone called a "fuckshit" before.

I must be getting old.

I want coffee.

Well... It's been an odd day, what with family health issues (he still isn't dead. It's very dissapointing, as is my spelling), grocery shopping (how big a turkey do you need for six people?) and programming.

Lots of programming.

Without getting much done at all. More programming than I would like to do on a sunny day.

I think I've begun to understand the zen of programming. It is all about communicating. I want the computer to do something, so I write a program to do it. If I don't tell the computer what I want it to do properly, it will do something else. If the computer doesn't understand me, it isn't the computer's fault. It's mine, baby. All mine.

I spent an hour working on three lines of code, only to realize that there was an extra comma in the second line.

So what have I learned this time? Coffee is your friend.

Not mine, that crazy little bitch coffee. Stupid beverage just despises me, and torments me. Damn coffee.

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