inbetween

I've been feeling particular of late. Particularly reclusive. Spending six hours in the library, listening to music and not talking to anybody really feels great these days.

Christmas and New Years came and went without a bang. Got to spend lots of time with Rü and Bink, always a good thing. I think it probably started me on this habitual hobbiting I've been doing.

I don't like where my head's been for the last year or so. I've spending too much time obsessing with what could have been, what I should have done, what I did ten (or fifteen!) years ago. That living in the past hasn't been healthy. Its also why I haven't been blogging. Meditation and yoga have helped a lot, I'm looking at the future and the possibilities. Hopefully I'll be able to finally let go of the past.

See, the strange thing is, I don't even know why I've been so obsessed with reviewing my own personal history. There isn't anything specific that has been at the forefront. Random moments from way back have been popping into my head, swimming around for a little while, and then popping out. Very strange.

Anyway, things are much better. The ISE stuff is moving along rather smoothly. I've developed a bit of a plan for completion, although I don't know what the timeline will be like. ISE work has to be intermingled with the homework (which is really starting to pick up) and life (to which I plan to return).

So, who wants to party?