I don't really understand why this is so difficult. A few weeks ago, writing in this diary was easy. Now, I just can't seem to force myself to do it. Maybe I've got a little depression. Maybe the cold that I have is messing with my head. Either way, it is a problem.
And it isn't limited to just this diary. I don't seem to be very excited or even interested in course work. Going to classes is also becoming a problem. I should really get off my lazy ass and do something, but the question that keeps popping into my head is, "What should I do?"
I don't know what to do. There are a million possibilities. I could write in the diary (what do I write about?), I could write some perl to do something interesting (a photo album? been done.), or some homework (blah! boring), or some homework (still boring) or some other homework (enough already, I don't want to!) or cook dinner (there's no food to cook) or go grocery shopping (hate grocery shopping) or...
I wish I knew what the problem was. I just can't put my finger on it. I'm madly, deeply, head-over-heels in love with Jeffrey. Some of the classes are interesting. I have interesting ideas for some programs, and for the website. I just can't seem to get going on anything.
Maybe I need my teddybear.